Back to the basics...

In the very beginning, God created the earth and the Heavens. He did it. He created everything. Sometimes I forget this.

God created us

Once God formed us with His hands, in His own image, He breathed His breath into us. We are part of Him. We are His children, we are His bride.

He then gave us authority over everything and told us to multiply. He didn’t create us to stay the same, but to multiply. To grow and to explore all that He has given us.

We then chose against Him, and listened to the snake that only held evil, lies and manipulation. Those for which, God didn’t create us for. They are not part of His image. We forgot who we were and all the good we are partaking in, as we walk in His divine nature.

So what was God’s plan to redeem everything we had lost? To give everything once again, He gave Himself, He gave Jesus. Jesus poured all He had out, crying blood as He cried out to forgive us, for we don’t know what we are doing. Then it was finished. He did it. He made a way for us to get back to having no space between us and God. We get to live in total freedom as we repent and give all of ourselves back to Him. We get to live in His joy even in suffering and His peace through war.

This season has been a time of God taking me back to basics. I am not saying God did all that happened, but I know He was with me as the amazing husband he is, I know He was still in control. Plus, I know He wasn’t going to let the time go by without me learning more about Him! To go deeper into His presence! I pray that not a day goes by that this happens! May I always hang onto Him, whether it is hard or not.

He has reminded me that He is the creator and He gets to go before me.

The first thing He did after He created human, was to have a Sabbath, He rested. I don’t believe He needed to rest, but He wanted to be that example to Adam, to live in His resting place. May that first day be the standard in everything.

God has shown me how to be so rooted in Him, that chaos cannot shake me. That lies and accusations cannot move me out of His truth. That intimacy and peace with God always go together. He is the King of peace, truth and love. I get to live in that place, even when I am currently in a fallen world.

As you can appreciate, I can’t give all details of Tuesday on my very public blog, so do ask me if you would like to know the miracle God did. But what I can say is that I saw a miracle happen right in front of me. I saw Gods promises fulfilled and His light shine bright. I saw all accusations that were said about me disappear and His truth manifest.

He created me. He is in charge. And I get to participate in His divine nature.

It is a gift and a wonder.

When I woke up on Tuesday morning, before getting ready to go to the embassy I asked Jesus what His word for today is and I opened my bible to search what He was going to give me. But I didn’t have to. I opened the bible right on what He wanted me to read – 2 Chronicles 20. This has been the chapter God has taken me back to since November.

God had already won the battle for me, and I got to walk into everything with His victory!

We get to be victorious because of His victories! Blows my mind!

Thank you to everyone that prayed! I have been overwhelmed with how many have been part of this journey with me! People that I have never met, letting me know that they pray for me regularly. I love the body of Christ and I really couldn’t do it without all of you!

I hope to be back by the end of next week, depending on when I receive my passport back. I am beyond excited to see everyone again! I just hope I'm understood, as my English accent has come back very strong!

In the wondering...

In the wondering... from ruth Alexander on Vimeo.

The week's deadline had started. I was getting nervous and the peace was leaving. This time next week is a big day in this whole process. 

I messaged my friend and asked her if she would consider coming with me, mentioning that I was nervous. The next day I woke up to a message from her, that contained what I call a 'slap around the face'. It was so good and just what I needed. She reminded me that I am a daughter of the high king, and that I don't have to walk in the nerves and let the enemy steal my peace. It allowed me to shift out of that place, and into the knowledge that I am held by my Heavenly father. 

I get to live solely in His word and truth.

She is going to come with me, and so is Jesus.

His word is enough. 

11 All at once an angel of the Lord appeared to him, standing just to the right of the altar of incense. 12 Zechariah was startled and overwhelmed with fear. 13 But the angel reassured him, saying, “Don’t be afraid, Zechariah! God is showing grace to you. For I have come to tell you that your prayer for a child has been answered. Your wife, Elizabeth, will bear you a son and you are to name him John. 14 His birth will bring you much joy and gladness. Many will rejoice because of him. 15 He will be one of the great ones in the sight of God. He will drink no wine or strong drink, but he will be filled with the Holy Spirit even while still in his mother’s womb. 16 And he will persuade many in Israel to convert and turn back to the Lord their God. 17 He will go before the Lord as a forerunner, with the same power and anointing as Elijah the prophet. He will be instrumental in turning the hearts of the fathers in tenderness back to their children and the hearts of the disobedient back to the wisdom of their righteous fathers. And he will prepare a united people who are ready for the Lord’s appearing.”

18 Zechariah asked the angel, “How do you expect me to believe this? I’m an old man and my wife is too old to give me a child. What sign can you give me to prove this will happen?”

19 Then the angel said, “I am Gabriel. I stand beside God himself. He has sent me to announce to you this good news. 20 But now, since you did not believe my words, you will be stricken silent and unable to speak until the day my words have been fulfilled at their appointed time and a child is born to you. That will be your sign!” Luke 1v11-20

21 days....

It was the last week of November, I was in my sister’s house near Heathrow with my bags packed, ready to go back to Jackson at any moment. My life had been turned upside down and had been put on hold. I knew what God was saying, but every path had a big brick wall at the end of it. I knew I was to go back to Jackson but I didn’t know how. I clunged onto God and His truth, fighting every lie and accusation with worship. My mind was focused on the moment by moment, not planning anything for the next day. My God, however, was thinking ahead. One morning while I was putting on my make-up, God said, ‘I want you to fast make-up for the 21 day fast in January, you are going to learn how to be a pure and spotless bride.’

Perfect skin is something I do not have, and make up is something so useful to cover this up. Putting colour in my skin, creating a better tone. Without it, I am anything but pure and spotless. However, God was using this physical fast, to do something in the spiritual.

The learning in the spiritual didn’t start in January, but on the 21^st November. When this season of crazy started. Bit by bit, God has shown me how to be a Bride of Christ. He has shown me how He is walking with me, holding my hand through every storm and every battle.

He is teaching me more of who I am, and all I have access to. I have been told 'no' by authorities of this earth. But my God says ‘Yes'. My God has all the authority, and I know I am going to see a miracle. I know that He is fighting on my behalf. (2 Chronicles 20)

I am here with no ‘Plan B’. God must show up or I have nothing. This is the best place to be in! I am delighted that He is in charge and I get to walk hand in hand with Him. I love that He is my strength and I don’t have to look elsewhere.

‘When I look at you, looking at me, I know just who I’m meant to be;

It’s who I am

Unafraid

Unashamed

Immovable

Unshakable

It’s who I am’

Stephanie Gretzinger/Bethel Music

He is teaching me who I am as the Bride of Christ, teaching me to walk up-right and bold. He is showing me all that is for me in the Heavens, opening my eyes to the possibilities when following Him. He is stretching my expectations. 

While reading Luke ch1, I discovered that Zechariah's time in the 'Holy of Holy' places was a once in a life time event for him, due to the amount of priests in the area. During this, he had an angel come and give him a message from God, to say that his wife is going to get pregnant in her old age. He asked a very simple question - 'Will there be a sign?' 

From this he was silenced. Doubt was silenced until faith arose again. He was silenced until he saw the miracle he was told was going to happen. Until his son was born.

If only he went in with an expectant heart, knowing that all things are possible. If only he didn't need to see the miracle in the physical to believe it was happening. 

God is teaching me to walk in complete faith, silencing fears and lies. Revealing all that faith and patience brings - The promises of Him. (Hebrews 6v12) For He is faithful. 

Thank you for your faithful prayers for me in this season. I know God has already won this battle for me, and I know that I will be going back to Jackson soon. Keep praying for that miracle!

He is Faithful...

I am a little late in the game to write this post, but Happy New Year to you all!

This last year I have seen God move mountains, being faithful and true to who he is. He has helped me overcome fear in areas of my life and has shown me more of what He thinks of me.

Overwhelming me time and time again. I have had so much fun with Him. He has used the hard times in this last year to show me once again, how loving He is. 2017 was the best adventure.

Even though this new year hasn't started how I imagined or planned. I know that God is still faithful and true to who He is. I know that what He has promised with come into being. I know that He has the final say and I know that He still loves with an everlasting love.

I look forward to going deeper with God over this next year, learning more about who He is. I look forward to seeing His promises and His word coming into being.

As I enter this new year, I do so with the heart posture of worship. He is worthy of it all. May I remain in that as I give Him my 'Yes' in this new year, once again.

Happy 2018!!