Monday, April 8, 2019

White as snow...

I am sitting on the wall of our outside pavilion, praying and worshiping before our church service starts. God was talking so clearly. I felt like my mind was being renewed as He reminded me all over again how much He loves me. He was taking me to those places of such intimacy that’s created for just me and Him. 

As I was sitting, my friend came and sat next to me. I think he thought something was wrong, so he wanted to sit with me out of kindness. Which is a huge thing! This friend and I have been through a lot together. His mental capacity is that of a ten year old, but on top of that he has been through so much trauma in his life. He has gone back to alcohol and drugs time and time again. He goes from living on the streets, to having somewhere nice to stay, to living with those who just steal from him and treat him badly.  
This man has threatened me many times, he has thrown bricks at my windows, refused to move from my doorstep when drunk because he has no other safe place to be. He has used my porch as a bathroom and I have had to hold his hand as he was holding a knife to his neck in a state of desperation. 

In it all, God has told me to remind him that God has created him to be kind. I always remind him how kind he really is. I have had to let God love him consistently through me, as in my own flesh that was close to impossible. I had to work through having a hard heart towards him so many times. I had to choose to get up and answer the door each time he was banging on it. I had to choose love. 

Jesus has chosen me so many times, that how can I deny Him in loving my neighbour as myself? Deny Him in loving His son. 

We have had many victories in him, such as when he decided one night to pour his beer out on the street, and go to bed instead of staying up all night drinking. 

One night he sat and listened to me read Psalm 139 over him. He sat and took in how His father really sees him. He burst into tears as he knew his need. 

One time he sat with my friend and cried out to Jesus in sheer desperation. He knows he can't do anything without Jesus. 

While I am sitting outside this pavilion, my kind friend comes and sits with me. He isn't drunk and wants to be a part of this family. He is choosing love. He still isn’t healed and fully whole, but he is trying to choose Jesus, and this is beautiful. It is our hearts that matter. 

While he is there, God reminds me of everything I have seen in him. He then shows me a day when he is fully whole. He reminds me that through His blood, His son is washed clean. That these moments with my friend will be testimonies of the past. That my friend’s future is so hopeful. 

I start to smile as I can see it. 

I can see my kind friend with a whole mind. Healed from all trauma and hurts. Filled with the Holy Spirit. Filled with Joy. I can see us talking about those moments with him having clarity of who Jesus fully is. 

During the service my friend sits next to me and colours this wording that he worked hard on. 

Jesus knows. Jesus is in it all. Jesus is consistent and His love changes people. 

Sunday, December 23, 2018

In this together...

Merry Christmas to you all!!

Many of you will know that this time of year is my favourite. I get involved with it all! Carol concerts, Christmas movies, Christmas music, dressing ridiculously, gifts and going to see the lights that amaze.

The reason I love Christmas so much, is that it brings everyone together. It brings in the truth, that you are loved. It might be a stranger walking past, making the extra effort to smile and say 'Merry Christmas', allowing that person to feel seen. Or it might be someone getting you something that is that 'perfect gift' for you.

Here in Jackson, I will be spending my Christmas day with people from all over coming together to have a big meal! The body of Christ have come together with providing the meal, as individuals and churches bring different dishes. We will play games, pray together and eat together at our 'Family table'.

As you read about the birth of Jesus and the first part of His life, you see how people came together. His birth wasn't kept a secret, but announced. The shepherds left everything to go and see this baby. Leaving their sheep in a vulnerable place with no shepherds, risking loosing them. 

The king's risk their jobs and livelihood  as they went against Herod's orders and brought our saviour gifts! Gold = Gift for a King, Frankincense = Gift for a priest, Myrrh = Gift for one who died. These kings brought appropriate gifts for our saviour, who was fully God and fully man, and was about to grow up as a beautiful example for us and do the greatest act of love. Defeated death so we can live forever with Him, as we were created to do.

God never created us to be alone and fully independent. Jesus even came as a baby and showed us that! He couldn't ever had done things without help from those created to look after Him. Mary willingly gave God her 'Yes' to birth and care for the son of God! Even Simeon, who was told that he was one day going to see our Saviour, didn't see him as an adult or even as a young child. But he saw Him at 8 days old and got to hold Him. He totally submitted to this tiny baby boy, knowing who He was. As he was soft hearted and allowed the Holy Spirit to speak though him. 

As you go through this Christmas season, I would love to challenge you to surround yourself with others. Seek community where you are. As God commanded us to love Him with everything in us, we get to also love our neighbours like we love ourselves. Not one person is not your neighbour, and you get to love them, as God teaches you to love. 

Thank you to each of you for being my community. For praying for me encouraging me and loving me. I couldn't do my every day with out you all! Thank you for being part of the story of all God is doing here in Downtown, Jackson! 

If you want to know more of my role here, or how to support me in it, through prayer or financially please do email me at

Merry Christmas everyone! 

Wednesday, October 17, 2018


Change can be seen as a negative thing to most people. It disrupts and brings uncomfortable moments. It means you have to be flexible and willing. Change can also be a good thing. Change brings newness and produces growth. 

We recently dug up the gardens from the summer crops, put down more dirt and put in new seeds to produce the winter crops. We now have sprouts of green coming up and we will have food to eat during the winter time. 

If we hadn’t have gone with the flow of the change of seasons, trying to stay in summer and to keep eating produce that wasn’t growing anymore, we wouldn’t have been successful. Change does bring good things. 

The gym here at We Will Go has changed a lot! It is now calmer, contains more joy and is bringing in families. Our prayers for our young men is not just for them, but also for their families and their households. For all that they get from Jesus under our roof spreads to their house and into the community. From those prayers we have seen the guys bring in their children and girlfriends, their mom’s and neighbours. This has meant we have needed to change the way we do things and the way we minister, but this is ok! Prayers are being answered and we are learning!

We decided before the summer to start doing our daily devotion in the gym at the end rather than in the middle of the time they have to play basketball. This means that everyone has lots more freedom to leave. They don’t have the incentive of playing basketball after the devotion, to stick around. From this we have seen the guys choose Jesus for themselves. Their hearts have softened and they are choosing Jesus for themselves. 

Change can bring in new growth in you. Change can produce a new kind of beauty that has never been seen before, never been explored. 

"See! The winter is past;
    the rains are over and gone.
12 Flowers appear on the earth;
    the season of singing has come,
the cooing of doves
    is heard in our land.
13 The fig tree forms its early fruit;
    the blossoming vines spread their fragrance.
Arise, come, my darling;
    my beautiful one, come with me.” 
Song of songs 2:11

Things are changing for me a little this week as I moved to our ‘Base 2’, which is about a five minute walk away. This is the base that our visitors stay on, so it will mean that I will get a lot more time with them outside of any scheduled times! We are also closer to where our kids live too! Please pray for this move to go well and for God to show all that He is desiring for me!

If you feel like things are changing for you in this season, or that things need to change, I encourage you to seek God in what that is to look like. Maybe it is to go overseas and be God’s hands and feet In another nation. Or maybe it is how you have been doing things that need to change to work with this new season God has you in. Whatever it is, I would love for you to share with me so I can pray with you! 

Wednesday, September 5, 2018

Softening hearts...

…She comes back time and time again to see us. Let’s us know how she is doing and is honest with when she is clean or not. She talks about dreams that God has given her, that she translates herself, knowing that God is crying over her. She chooses to give her life to God once again. She sees her son weekly on supervised visits and the father of the baby is also able to visit. 

The only hope is in Him. 

This last month has been one of stepping into new levels. God has shown me more and more of His heart for individuals. Hearts have softened dramatically. A miracle that I get more excited about than a physical healing. A miracle that brings people closer to Jesus. That brings people to that place of surrender. 

‘No fire can burn me
No battle can turn me
No mountain can stop me
'Cause You hold my hand
And I'm walking in Your victory
'Cause Your power is within me
No giant can defeat me
'Cause You hold my hand
No fire can burn me
No battle can turn me
No mountain can stop me
'Cause You hold my hand
I am walking in Your victory
'Cause Your power is within me
No giant can defeat me
'Cause You hold my hand
No fire can burn me
No battle can turn me
No mountain can stop me
'Cause You hold my hand
I am walking in Your victory
'Cause Your power is within me
No giant can defeat me
'Cause You hold my hand’
                                              Tasha Cobbs, You know my name

God is teaching me, that in the place of surrender He is calling me to, the place in surrender that allows me to be the daughter and Bride of Christ that I was created to be. 

In that place, nothing can hold me back, and I am never alone. I get to walk fully trusting that God knows it all and God is in charge. That I get to walk in the expectancy of miracles and for Gods will to be done. No striving. Just walking with Him, hand in hand. 

“There is no one holy like the Lord;
    there is no one besides you;
    there is no Rock like our God.
“Do not keep talking so proudly
    or let your mouth speak such arrogance,
for the Lord is a God who knows,
  and by Him deeds are weighed
1 Samuel 2v2-3

Tuesday, August 7, 2018

Eye's fixed on Him...

She walked away from us across the car park. Not knowing where was safe to go or how long she was going to be clean for. She got new clothes and some food, but she needed so much more than that. 

She has just had a baby by c-section and it got taken from her straight away. Baby addicted to drugs taken to foster care from the first breath. His mom not seeing him, but left on the operating table not knowing that he was gone and that was it. 

She came to us with her wound weeping and she was leaking. She wasn’t able to see a doctor again since ‘that day’. 

She comes again the next day weeping and crying out to Jesus. We cry together. She has been clean for a week, from the day she had the baby, and she knows that’s from love. She sees how love changes someone. She talks about the realisation that there is no plan B. That Jesus is the only way. We hug and we cry some more. We talk about the fact that Jesus catches every tear and she doesn’t have to be strong, but can let God be strong for her. We talk about the fact that she doesn’t have to live carrying this for the rest of her days, but can give her pain and hurt to Jesus and let Him redeem. 

She named the baby after his father and he will forever be hers. She is forever Gods and He will bring her through this. 

I have a meeting so she sits with my friend and calls a shelter for women who are coming off the street. Women who used to sell themselves and would like to get free. She books a meeting for the next day. 

As I walk away my feet stick to my sandals as they are wet with her tears. My heart keeps on breaking and I’m reminded to keep praying. 

There is hope as long as she cries out to God. There is hope as long as she stays with Him, the one who has amazing plans for her. 

She comes again the next day talking about another program that would help her and if she got in, her social worker said she could stay there with the baby. The downside - it’s $600 a month. She says she’s not worried as Jesus will make a way. We gave her some chicken salad and she says goodbye with a big smile on her face. A smile of hope. 

The next time she is seen, she is back on the street corner. Lies came in again. Desperation to get her baby back. She tried to take control once again. 

Then God turns it back in my moment of sadness and frustration. How many times do we try and take control? How many times do we panic as we realise that we are walking on water, knowing we can’t do it on own. Not one part of me can do that. But only through Jesus in me. So I fall in the water and wonder why I’m drowning and call out His name again. He grabs my arm and pulls me back out by His mercy and I get to try again. 

Please pray for my friend. I don’t know where she is right now. But I pray that she will once again get back to that place that God is the only answer. 

'Camp Hope' 2018 has finished, but what God has done in our kids lives, as well as us missionaries has just started! The last week we had children crying in worship and choosing to pray in situations rather than getting angry. They proclaimed that the reason they come to 'Camp Hope' is because 'Jesus came for us all, He doesn't leave anyone out' and 'to get the ghetto out of our hearts'. As I write this, we are getting the baptism tub ready for church today. We are going to baptise a few of those who gave their lives to Jesus, plus one of our amazing summer interns! 

Keep praying for us as we transition back into the school year schedule. That our kids keep choosing Jesus in it all. 

He is so worthy. 

Keep your eyes on Him! 

Sunday, July 22, 2018

Learning to purely love....

In my weariness I realised that I wasn't loving purely. That there was more. That it was about loving others just he loves. That in the overflow of learning how much He loves me, I get to love others just like that. It's learning to have a soft heart towards Him, so I can have a soft heart towards others. That I get to 'Love the Lord my God with all of my heart, mind, soul and strength' and from there I get to 'Love my neighbour as I love myself'. 

These last couple of months I have had so many opportunities to purely love in crazy hard moments. But it wasn't just done in the learning to see people how He sees them, but in learning to see how He sees me as well. The more that I learn who I am in Him, the more I get to be entwined as one with the Lord. 

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Fearless Faith

Psalm 27

David’s poetic praise to God before he was anointed king

The Lord is my revelation-light to guide me along the way;
    he’s the source of my salvation to defend me every day.

    I fear no one!

    I’ll never turn back and run from you, Lord;
    surround and protect me.
When evil ones come to destroy me,
    they will be the ones who turn back.

My heart will not be afraid even if an army rises to attack.
    I know that you are there for me, so I will not be shaken.
Here’s the one thing I crave from God,
    the one thing I seek above all else:
    I want the privilege of living with him every moment in his house,
    finding the sweet loveliness of his face,
    filled with awe, delighting in his glory and grace.
    I want to live my life so close to him
    that he takes pleasure in my every prayer.
In his shelter in the day of trouble, that’s where you’ll find me,
    for he hides me there in his holiness.
    He has smuggled me into his secret place,
    where I’m kept safe and secure—
    out of reach from all my enemies.

    Triumphant now, I’ll bring him my offerings of praise,
    singing and shouting with ecstatic joy!
    Yes, listen and you can hear
    the fanfare of my shouts of praise to the Lord!
God, hear my cry. Show me your grace.
    Show me mercy, and send the help I need!
Lord, when you said to me, “Seek my face,”
    my inner being responded,
    “I’m seeking your face with all my heart.”
So don’t hide yourself, Lord, when I come to find you.
    You’re the God of my salvation;
    how can you reject your servant in anger?
    You’ve been my only hope,
    so don’t forsake me now when I need you!

My father and mother abandoned me. I’m like an orphan!
    But you took me in and made me yours.
Now teach me all about your ways and tell me what to do.
    Make it clear for me to understand,
    for I am surrounded by waiting enemies.
Don’t let them defeat me, Lord.
    You can’t let me fall into their clutches!
    They keep accusing me of things I’ve never done
    while they plot evil against me. 
Yet I totally trust you to rescue me one more time,
    so that I can see once again how good you are while I’m still alive!

Here’s what I’ve learned through it all:
    Don’t give up; don’t be impatient;
    be entwined as one with the Lord.
    Be brave and courageous, and never lose hope.
    Yes, keep on waiting—for he will never disappoint you!

Wednesday, May 30, 2018

Fear cannot stand to His great name, Victory was born when the lamb was slain…

(Title from Kingdom Culture Worship) 

There has been so many times that I have wondered at His great love. I have marvelled and almost can’t believe that God would love me to the extent that He does. The deeper I walk into His love, the more it changes me. God blows me away time and time again as He shows me His power and might through pure love. His name alone can move mountains and tell fear to leave.  

It is because of this that I stand on His great love and all who He is. 

We have about ten children from ages 10 – 13 that come in faithfully, and I have had the privilege to be with them twice a week during the after school program. (The Fountain) One young man is new to me since returning back from England. He is the life of most rooms and doesn’t fail to make me laugh. I have seen a huge change in Him since being back. He used to need one on one help, just so the whole room could function. Now, he helps me and joins in with what the whole room is doing. 

This is because of God’s great love. 

A while ago this boy asked everyone around “Do you love me?” or “why do you keep saying that you love me?”. This very thing was so new to Him and he was on the path to discovery of what love looks like. 

Last week I went to this boy’s graduation from 5thgrade to 6th. At the end of the whole presentation the head master of the school stood up and said ‘this boy has been asking every teacher, “why don’t you say you love me?, we love you!” and we never had an answer. But today we say to you, all of you, we love you’. 

This young man learnt what love looked like and took it to his school. He discovered that love is something you can have in every relationship and it’s needed! He saw a lack and questioned it. 

I cry when writing this, as this is a huge thing. This young man is just one of many we get to see daily, and God changed Him with His love. So he took it and changed his school. This neighbourhood is a fatherless neighbourhood. The family dynamics are such that our kids don’t get what they daily need. (Acceptance, focused attention, guidance and protection). There is so much need that I would get overwhelmed daily if I decided to carry it. 

Yet, it is His and I trust Him. 
I trust Him with the children daily to teach, guide, love on and pull in deeper. They are His and I get to join in for the ride. When you see things like kids taking pure love to the schools, it makes everything so worth it! 

There was a moment last week where I did feel overwhelmed, as I prayed for wisdom and guidance in it all. I prayed to be a good leader like King David, who did seek God in all things, and was great at repentance. But most of all, He did everything out of worship to God. I asked God for the guidance from Him. He gave me Psalm 27 and it blew me away as I read it with new eyesight.

What I want to leave you with today is the last part. As we all have the one person we are praying for, for the love of Jesus to touch them today. For God’s love to change a situations and places. We all need His love to change us too! 

‘Here’s what I’ve learned through it all: Don’t give up; Don’t be impatient; be entwined as one with the Lord. Be brave, courageous, and never loose hope. Yes, keep on waiting – for He will never disappoint you!’ 
Psalm 27v14