I am nearly 26 and facing the reality that I haven’t a penny
to my name, not married and no children. I am truly out of those ‘teenage
years’ and I can’t help think about my pension. What will I do when I am old?!?
What am I doing with my life?! I am being totally vulnerable with you, many a
times I think ‘time to get serious Ruth, get a job or even a degree and settle
down.’
What am I called to? I am called to love the Lord with all
my heart, soul and mind. What does love look like? Sorting out my finances and
making sure I have security in my life? Making sure that when someone says, ‘so
what do you do?’ I have a great answer. ‘Oh yes, well I am training to be a
pre-natal surgeon with the top medical university in the world.’
I am called to Obey Him. I have been called to love on those
in Mozambique. The widow, orphan, prostitute and pimp; the missionaries, the
pastors, the visitors and guest speakers.
With this calling I don’t see myself getting a great credit
score. My life is an adventure; I call it a joy to dance to the music.
May I never give up, focus on the wrong thing or decide my
worth is in what my CV says about me. My life is all about Him and in all
reality I couldn’t choose any other thing.
I am resting in faith, His plan and His truth.
If you read Job you can see that he is constantly fighting
for what is right. There is no embarrassment or desire to just go with what his
peers are saying to him. He was one that was truly dancing to the music in
every circumstance.
My true desire for my life is to be holy, pure and oh so
close to Him. I want to be heaven minded.What a joy it is to be called daughter.
